Mental Health

Today was good day: Brunch followed by hanging out at the apartment. We have been listening to musicals a lot at work, and my selection on my ipod was so limited compared to all of the stuff that I have at home. It's so funny because over the past couple of years, I have gone away from the musical theatre cd genre, and today I have been able to see what stood the test of my time. For example the song Hero and Leander is still good, sadly Love Changes Everything just does nothing for me. Nothing. And that was my high school anthem. Sorry Sir Andrew!

I also journaled a little bit. I need to do that more.

If I were to fill out one of those "25 things" surveys on Facebook, one would have to be that people don't know that my feelings can get hurt very easily. I am working on getting thicker skin but there's only so much you can do. Feelings are feelings. Anywho, it was nice to put some things down on paper and be done with it.

I am not sure if I posted this earlier, but it's fun regardless - and probably very wrong:

Change

I am constantly reminded how things come and go. Like the tide. Tonight I was watching an episode of Grey's Anatomy thinking "I can't believe how horrible this show was a couple of months ago. They have really turned things around." So things seem a little scary now. I am going to keep positive that they will turn around.

I'm Working On It

Things I am working on:

Getting rid of my spare tire.

Meditating/ doing more yoga.

Being more positive about myself. As a coworker told me the other day, I need to "live up to my greatness." I respect her artistically so I guess I will take that to heart.

Not taking things so personally.

I wish that these things came more naturally to me, but what can you do? Keep trying and hope that it sticks!

A Day Off...

I am gearing up for a day off tomorrow. Apparently I am old because I am going to take off on Saint Patty's day and go to the gym, do my laundry and mop some floors. The O-Mop by Method Cleaning Products makes mopping awesome.

Tonight I saw a great reading. Then my friend and I grabbed Taco Bell. We sat down to eat, and Taco Bell brought the big steel cover down on the front of the store. It was creepy. I thought we may have been held hostage. Not so much. We went out a side door.

That's not that exciting of a story, actually.

I think I may buy a new copy of The Artist's Way tomorrow. I lost my copy, and quite frankly, I need to feel more artsy at the moment.

Balance

New rule:

I need to learn to take a compliment and believe people when they give them to me.

I got a lot of them today. It meant a lot.

I miss TBC already...

Parting

I am totally a baby about closing certain shows. I get really sad. I think I am starting to feel it with this one...

Envy

I find it very embarrassing to laugh out loud on a plane. My first time was on Jet Blue. Every TV has its own personal television, and while flipping through the channels, Betty White appeared to me - on the best show ever - Match Game. I had only heard of its greatness but never experienced. I could not help but watch and laugh. And then blush. And laugh again.

The same experience happened to me last Thursday on my flight to the Chicago area. This time is was When You are Engulfed in Flames by David Sedaris.

The following is one of the essays in this book. I love it. His storytelling is perfect. I hate him.

Late Night Twist

Today I seemed to be a Debbie Downer. Last week was hard. Being stuck in bed is no fun, and worrying that I would not be able to travel on Thursday took it's toll. Getting back to work after a week was nerve-racking. I will catch up. Hopefully. This week. I am crossing my fingers. While riding the subway, I pulled out a Time Magazine. I couldn't read any articles. It depressed me. In the back of my mind I was thinking about all of the difficult choices that have to be made - we all have to do what is best for us in the long run - but sometimes that answer is not clear.

Last week a friend's Facebook status was "...wishes life had one of those magic 8 balls to shake." I feel that - maybe not so we have all of the answers, maybe to just take the sting out of things sometimes.

Regardless, the last conversation I had concerned baby steps. It brightened my day.

And this makes me laugh over and over again: